Remembering
Our Brothers and
Sisters Who Gave It All On 9-11
Our Pilgrimage to Manhattan
October
2002
“Saying Goodbye To
Friends”
Warren
and Jan Lee Jorgenson December 20, 2002 This
past year has been a difficult year for all of us and especial for
those of us
that had friends at FDNY that gave it all on September 11th 2001.After
having the privilege of working with members of Rescue 4, Rescue 2,
Ladder 108
and Marine 6 of the FDNY in the late 70’s and early 80’s, it has been
very
difficult to say goodbye and hard to believe that they are gone. I had the privilege of knowing
Ray Downey when he was on Rescue 2 back in the early 80's. Deputy
Chief Ray Downey in his 39 years with FDNY was the most highly
decorated
firefighter in the history of the department. We
hardly ever used to cry, but since September 11th we seem to
drop a
tear very easy when ever patriotic songs are played. Jan
Lee and I decided almost a year ago that we would need to make the trip
back to New York in order for us
to bring closure to this tragic loss life
and friends. On
September 29th we left for the National Fallen Firefighter
Memorial
Service and drove to WashingtonD.C.Immediately upon arriving in Washington almost a week
before
the memorial service we started running into firefighters from all
around the
world. To
those that organized this historic memorial service, our hats are off
to you,
as we found a very well planned and organized event.The firefighters in WashingtonD.C. extended a red
carpet
for all of us visiting their city.With
all the mixed feelings of joy and sorry, we still had this haunting
fear of the
potential of something terrible happening with this large assembling of
firefighters from around the world.It
was reassuring to see the security at an elevated level. It was also a little nerve
wracking to know that some wacko sniper was killing people in the DC
area during the time we were in DC. On
Friday October 5th we road the Metro subway train uptown
with the St
Paul Fire Department Honor Guard.It was
an honor to be able to ride with the firefighters that took the
national
championship in honor guard competitions this past year and they are
truly a
class act! A
beautiful evening service was held at the Basilica
of the National Shrine of
the Immaculate Conception at 7 p.m. on Saturday, October 5, 2002. The service
featured musical selections by members of the
fire service and survivors of fallen firefighters. Fire service honor
guard lit
the candles for the fallen firefighters. A video featured each honored
hero. As
the ceremony closed, survivors share the light of the Remembrance
Candle, a
symbol of the hope and enduring friendship shared by all who have lost
a
firefighter. On
Sunday October 6th we awaken earlier to make sure we are at
our
predetermined location at 7th street between Pennsylvania and Constitution
avenues. The Metro subway was full of uniforms and the closer we got to
Constitution Avenue, it seemed like
an army
firefighters were gathering. A
sign that says “Minnesota” stands waiting
for us.
Next to us is Vermont, and then Japan, Connecticut, Illinois,
California,
Arizona, Kentucky Massachusetts, Montana, New Mexico, Oregon,
Washington and
South Carolina are all in our section. As
the early morning sun rises in the East, it starts to warm the air.More firefighters are arriving from all
around the world and
soon we find more Minnesotans arriving at our sign.Minneapolis honor guard, Redwing, Albert Lee,
Willmar, New Brighton, Apple Valley, St Paul honor guard, who marched
in the
procession, and David Hammer, Chairman of
Minnesota Fallen firefighters Association (MFFMA) carried Minnesota flag in the
ceremonies.It
was exhilarating to see firefighters from our state. As
the ceremony starts and the procession begins we come to attention as
we take
our place along 7th street. As we look up
the
street we see firefighters in a “Sea of Blue” lining both
sides of
the street. Soon the bagpipes and the honor guards start passing by and
then
the buses filled with
family members.
In
all 36 buses with family
members
holding pictures of their Dad or Mom, Brother or Sister, Husband or
Wife, Son
or Daughter in the windows as they pass by. Seeing the children wave at
us, we
both agreed that this was the hardest thing we have ever had to do in
our
entire lives. We’ve
been at many firefighters funerals but have never felt the tug at our
hearts
that we did as we stood there at attention with tears running down our
face. We
noticed something else too and that is we were not alone. You hear the
pipes
and the cadence from the honor guards as we pay our respects, stand in
silence,
and say a prayer for those alive and those who are not. Once
the last units pass by the firefighters
that had lined the streets, no longer were from different states but
rather we were a
proud brotherhood of firefighters, as we start to fall in
behind and fill the street as we march to the MCI Center, now rename to
Verizon Center, for the
memorial
service.The citizens that also line the
streets applaud us as we march in silence. It was an awesome feeling of
pride
and sorrow all mixed together. Although,
we did not know all of those who had given their lives, we “knew” them
all.
They were just like you and me. We “knew” the families on the buses
also. They
are just like yours and ours. We though how easy it could be for our
family to
be on those buses. We came back to reality and remind ourselves about
the
importance of training. The
ceremony inside is spectacularly and filled
with grandeur. The family members filled the center floor and photos
and names
of
the firefighters from across the country are displayed and read.It seems like several hours have gone by
since the 19 readers started reading the names.Talking
with some of the FDNY family members after the
service on the
stage, they are now looking forward to getting on with their lives as
best they
can. Of all the speakers of
the day Bill Manning, editor of Fire
Engineering gave the
dedication which was the most uplifting
rousing
speech we have every heard. After the
ceremony Jan Lee and I were talking with Bill and Jan Lee suggested he
put his
dedication on the web site for all to read. Bill said that was a great
idea and
you can now read it at by
scrolling to the bottom of the this page. It was a privilege and
an honor to be part of the single
largest gathering of fire service and public safety personnel, honor
guard
units and bagpipers in America's
history leading a procession and escorting the families of America's
bravest to the National Fallen Firefighters Memorial Service at the MCICenter. Monday morning Jan Lee
and I left for New
York
where we spent the next week visiting friends on Long Island fire stations and at FDNY Rescue
1, Rescue 2 and Rescue 4. On
a visit to New York City, Jan Lee and I
had the
privilege of going to the site now forever to be known as "Ground
Zero" where the "attack on America" at the WorldTradeCenter took place. It
was a humbling, emotional experience, none like we have known in the
our years we
have been on this earth. We took a whole year to get ready for this
visit. You
cannot get ready for this visit. You may think you know what awaits you
at
Ground Zero, but trust me, you don’t! Unlike other visits to New York, this one had an
emotional baggage to it because of friends we lost on September 11, 2001. We decide to make our
first journey to Ground Zero late at
night when we would be alone and the crowds would not be present. We
passed the
remains of fire station, Engine 10 and Ladder 10, which is directly
across from
the towers.
The
following morning we stop back at Ground Zero and then
visit
O’Hara’s Pub where we used to frequent.
It’s looks different now then it did before. While there we met
some firefighters from Australia.
Dave, their tour guide from Engine 44 in the Bronx, is
showing them around.
A
mere block away from Ground Zero and experiencing no damage, not even a
broken
window, is St. Paul’s Chapel,
dedicated in
1776.The church has become a memorial
site and a haven for the masses that arrive from around the world to
pay their
respects. St. Paul’s Chapel is
where
George Washington prayed after taking the office as President of the United States. We’ve stood in many
hallowed places throughout our life ArlingtonCemetery, the Vietnam Wall, to name
a few. We’ve stood over too many grave sites in our lifetime and wept
for our
grand fathers, our grand mothers, not to mention the many firefighters
and dear
friends who have gone on before us. But this place, this ground, is
different.
It is a place of innocence, which was transformed into a raging inferno
that
thirteen months later still spews out the cries of the souls, and
memories as
if to say, "never forget me and September 11, 2001". It seems
strange that the 9/11 date of this unthinkable tragedy are those same
numbers
we use when the public needs us. We’ve
been to New York many times but
have
never felt the tug at our heart that we did this trip. Besides the
haunting
lack of the towers, you notice something else is missing; the yellow
cabs are
not honking their horns as frequently. You actually hear New Yorkers
saying,
"I’m sorry" or "Excuse me" when they bump into someone on
the street. They actually allow you to go first, like we do in Minnesota.If you are wearing fire paraphernalia you get
the royal treatment.We rode the subway
all week for free because we were fire service personnel. We
just had to go back and pay our personal respects, stand in silence at
Ground
Zero, and walk over to St. Patrick’s Cathedral for a few minutes of
prayer for
the FDNY and those alive and those who were lost. As
we read the many loving notes written on the fence at St. Patrick’s
Cathedral
at Ground Zero, we find a large
banner from Detroit Lakes Minnesota and
it
makes us feel proud and yet we cry. There are hundreds of signs,
letters
posters tee shirts and they all tell of feelings for loved ones lost.
Messages
from wives to husbands, husbands to wives, children to Mothers or
Fathers,
parents to their children, and friend to friend are posted on the high
fence
around the church. One
message that we saw stayed with us. It was a firefighter from California to his buddy on
Ladder
20. It was not a lengthy tearful message from a fellow firefighter but
simply
one firefighter to another, "John, I miss you. Frankie". Everyone who
comes to the wall around the church speaks in hushed voices. We believe
that no
one visits this site without experiencing a lump in their throat, tears
in
their eyes, as we did. As
we stand at the viewing area across the street from the church we see
the
famous cross that recovery worker Frank Silecchia of Little Ferry,
N.J., pulled
intact from the rubble and erected to serve as a daily reminder of
faith amid
tragedy. Silecchia mounted
the cross to a large cement foundation to
serve as
an inspiration to the thousands of recovery workers who worked the pile
for
months after the Sept. 11 attack. Recovery workers found the section of
the WorldTradeCenter in tact and
immediately
erected it along the eastern side of Ground Zero. It became a symbol of
what
they are about as firefighters, police officers, workers and volunteers
meet at
the foot of the Cross every Sunday morning at 7:00 AM for a prayer
service. The
cross now stands to the left of the reviewing stand and serves as a
memorial at
the site and will most likely be part of the future site at Ground Zero. As
we stood there Jan Lee asked about a huge building to the right of the
viewing
stand that had an enormous gash in it from top to bottom as it stood
there
draped in black screening, like a person on morning. It is the
Deutchebank building
where hundreds and hundreds were evacuated safely without the loss of
one
single person. As
Jan Lee and I stood and viewed this sacred place, we could not help but
think
of the thousands of senseless murders that occurred on this place,
right in front
of us, which has forever change the way we feel about our country and
the
people around us. We also remember the thousands that were saved from
that
horrible tragedy. Most
of the poor souls were never found, their bodies are missing and, for
some, only
parts will be found and identified. At least that will allow some sort
of
closure to begin for their families. There is great anger from New
Yorkers
about the Staten Island
location where the material from Ground Zero was taken.The site was a garbage dump and that has not
set well with everyone here. What
will happen on that precious piece of land in the future that will be
forever
branded into our hearts and memories?Others
will see that the right thing is done. Americans
always have done
the right thing about their fallen heroes. This time will be no
different I’m
sure. As
we spend time with friends at Rescue 1 and Rescue 4, we find the FDNY
stations
working to be ready to unveil memorial plaques in each of the city's 75
firehouses that lost members on Sept. 11.The
mood of the firefighters is somber and you can feel
the pain. The
new probes that have joined
the stations are drawn into this somber
painful
mood.Once the horns sounds and a run is
underway the mood immediately changes to an upbeat enthusiastic
all-for-one
attitude and a portion of September 11, 2001 is left behind.But once we return to the station the mood
slowly creeps back into the house like a ghost that has followed the
crew back
home.It is a strange helpless feeling
that we are experiencing and it is hard to get the guys to smile. Saturday
October 12th arrives and we are up early to take the subway
from Queens into Manhattan. Once again we
find
firefighters, like a large army gathering to do battle, as we get
closer to our
gathering point. Today is different in a couple of ways, one it’s
raining and
we are “in” New York City where the battle
began. We
are to assemble by 7
a.m. Saturday,
October 12 on 9th Avenue and 23rd Street in Manhattan but because of
the
thousands that have come we continually get pushed down towards 14th Street. . 781
limousines chauffeured the families of the fallen to the ceremony. They
entered MadisonSquareGarden on a long red
carpet
under a white awning.Chief Brian Dixon
took 45 minutes for to read all the names of the FDNY members who made
the
supreme sacrifice in the performance of duty at box 8087, the WorldTradeCenter on September 11, 2001. As
the names of each firefighter were read, photos were displayed of the
firefighter, in fire gear and some with wife and children. At
approximately noon, the roll call
ended
and applause rocked the Garden for ten uninterrupted minutes. Because
the large amount of FDNY firefighters and family members present, we
were
outside, cold drenched watching the ceremony on a giant TV screens.
Each family
was presented with a mahogany box containing four medals, the
department's
medals of valor and supreme sacrifice, the International Association of
Firefighters' medal of honor, and one from Tiffany's commemorating the
World
Trade Center. Tears
once again streamed down many faces in the crowd when Irish tenor Ronan
Tynan
sang, "You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains, you raise me up to
walk on stormy seas, I am strong when I am on your shoulders, you raise
me up
more than I can be." In conclusion, there
really isn’t much to say that hasn’t
already been said by others. But of the
many patriotic cartoons that have
come across our computer since
September 11,
one keeps coming to mind. It shows a firefighter holding aloft our
Stars and
Stripes, standing in the rubble and carnage of Ground Zero with an
armed combat
ready soldier reaching out for the flag as he says to the firefighter,
"I’ll take it from here." America
is at war, and as they "take it from here", we wish our men and women
in military service well. This
pilgrimage to New York we saw the
remains evil
and we have seen the gathering of heroes. We were glad we picked this
day to be
here because there's no greater honor than to feel and be part of this
worldwide brotherhood of firefighters, with the best of America. We want to personally
thank the firefighters at Rescue 4,
FDNY’s Bravest who will always be remembered by Jan Lee and I as the
best of
"New
York’s
finest" for
their courtesy and hospitality during our visit.
Do
not reprint the following … this is for your info … I have ask for
permission from
Bill to
print this.
Fire Engineering's
Editor in Chief Bill Manning concluded
the Sunday's service with the following:
Sea
of Blue
We
miss you, fallen heroes, And
time seems to move slower without you; Yet
through the mists of grief We
feel you still, and that is our relief: For
our hearts beat as one. Your
hearts beat within us, within the sea of blue.
Long
through the day and into the night, We
turn out, leaving behind Our
fire stations and our homes For a
dangerous destination, A
clash with the unknown; but We are
poised, battle-ready, our nerves honed With
steel, and we are not alone: Your
hearts beat within us, within the sea of blue. Our
sirens are the heralds of hope- From
those in danger, never far away- And to
the helpless, they say, "We
have made a promise, a sacred trust, As our
forefathers did and as we now must Fulfill,
for we are firefighters true, And
our hearts beat as one in a sea of blue." As
we push through the smoke, Advance
our line through the door, As we
throw ladders and Search
above the fire floor, As we
take command And
make our stand, We are
one true sea of blue. As we
drop from planes And
cut fire breaks, As we
search through the rubble, As we
do whatever it takes To
rescue those in mortal trouble, As the
sweat drips from our brows, As our
eyes meet in battle With a
recognition and resolve, As
drops of blood in tears dissolve, As we
burn with the flame of life And
reach deep down To
find the courage And
the strength to carry on, Our
hearts are one, and your hearts beat still Within
a sea of blue.
When
we say "yes" To the firefighter's life,
When
we say "yes" To
duty, honor, and sacrifice, We are
saying "yes" with you, fallen hero. You
are alive in ways that can't be seen: We
follow our dream In
your footsteps and, As you
emptied your goodness into life's cup, So
will we follow and raise it up- For
our hearts are one In a
sea of blue. Across
our hearts and minds A
spirit blows, throughout time, unceasing: A
virtuous spirit called "sister" and "brother" That
joins us to one another And
fills us with the power To
walk this unforgiving road And
lock arms around the helpless In a
rock-solid wall of human kindness Between
the perilous And
the imperiled. For we
are one, a sea of blue. We
are fire patriots, our flags unfurled, A sea
of blue in a circle of lifegiving That's
everwidening And
transcendent of this world. Your
immortality sings within us To the
beat of the hearts in a sea of blue. Let
us testify, brothers and sisters, To the
families of the fallen whose love For
their heroes is deeper than the sea, Let
this be our solemn vow, our destiny: May
our fallen heroes live on In our
every act of courage, In
every deed of honor, In
every discharge of duty, In
every mark of kindness, In
every expression of compassion, In our
passion for the job, In our
every achievement, In our
every success, In
everything we do: May
you live on, fallen heroes, In the
enduring sea of blue. --Bill
Manning, October
6, 2002
FDNY Fireboat 343 Launching Sept 11, 2009
Made with the steel from Ground Zero
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